We at the Gay Male Journal (GMJ) have dubbed May, Gay Male Violence Awareness Month (#GayMVA). The issue of gay domestic abuse is something that makes it into the newspaper headlines only when someone has been attacked, and a shocking video is able to be streamed around the world. “If it bleeds, it leads”. But this is a real and ever growing crisis within our community that needs to be discussed and dealt with. No matter what is said, no man has the right to hit another man. Period.
Western society does not place much value on the lives of gay males, so we must ensure that we do it for ourselves. This means not only protecting ourselves and our brothers from outside threats, but also from those occurring within our communities and even within our own bedrooms.
With this in mind, we reached out to our new friend Mr. Wyatt O’Brian Evans, who is an advocate against gay male Intimate Partner Violence (IPV) as well as a journalist, motivational speaker, radio personality and author of the new novel Nothing Can Tear Us Apart – Frenzy!, to give his take on this sensitive topic. Mr. O’Brian Evans is also one of the rare people to speak about this issue from the perspective of gay males of colour.
“Remember, the most potent weapon in the abuser’s arsenal is silence.”
I’m really proud of my best bud “Jase,” who I’ve known all my life. He put in a lot of sweat, tears, and hard work to become the self-aware and assured guy he is today. His story resonates with more than a few of us.
Throughout childhood and into his mid-20s, Jase was painfully insecure. His dad died when Jase was 6, leaving him with the aching hunger for a consistent male role model. As well, he struggled to come to terms with being gay.
Fast-forward to Jase’s senior year in college. He fell head over heels for “Jeremiah,” a junior. “J” was his first real love.
But alas, the honeymoon soon ended. J kept constant tabs on Jase, “blowing up” his phone. Because Jase’s self-esteem was nearly in the toilet, he thought J’s behavior was a demonstration of love.
So what did J do for an encore? Well, he isolated Jase from family and friends.
Next the verbal abuse began: “You’re weak. You don’t act like a real man. Nobody else is gonna want yo’ punk azz!”
The abuser threatened to out Jase’s best bud at work. Jase was so in the closet that it was like it was dead-bolted, hermetically sealed. Stigma can be such a punishing, maddening, and inescapable force.
After Jase and J moved in together, the emotional and mental abuse escalated. Sadly, this continued for many months.
Finally, Jase packed his bags. He’d had enough.
J’s reaction? Suicide. Fortunately, the attempt was unsuccessful.
But Jase kept his vow to leave; however, he stayed in the relationship. Why? He still loved J, which is not uncommon for victims. As well, he felt responsible for him.
To make matters worse, Jase was so beaten down that he truly believed he couldn’t do any better.
J intensified the abuse because he was infuriated that he didn’t have regular access to Jase. The straw that broke the camel’s back was when J attacked him, repeatedly punching him dead in the face. According to Jase, the blows felt like a sledgehammer’s.
Fortunately, Jase wasn’t critically injured, and with assistance from his cop brother-in-law, he made his great escape. Afterward, therapy enabled him to heal, become whole, and completely embrace his sexual orientation.
As you might have gathered, that young man was me. I’m a survivor of intimate partner violence and abuse, known as domestic violence and abuse within the LGBTQ community.
According to the National Coalition of Anti-Violence Programs, intimate partner violence and abuse is “a pattern of behaviors utilized by one partner (the abuser or batterer) to exert and maintain control over another person (the survivor or victim) where there exists an intimate, loving and dependent relationship.”
Research suggests that a greater percentage of LGBTQ individuals are living in fear of an abusive partner than previously thought. Each year, between 50,000 and 100,000 lesbians (or more) and as many as 500,000 (or more) gay and bi men are battered — and about one in four LGBTQ relationships/partnerships are abusive in some way.
According to psychologists and authors Jeanne Segal and Melinda Smith, “Domestic violence and abuse are used for one purpose and one purpose only: to gain and maintain total control over you. Abusers use fear, guilt, shame, and intimidation to wear you down and keep you under his or her ‘thumb.’ Your abuser may also threaten you, hurt you, or hurt those around you. The bottom line is that abusive behavior is never acceptable. You deserve to feel valued, respected, and safe.”
Stigma is largely responsible for keeping this destructive behavior swept under the rug, which leads to it being dramatically underreported. Figuratively, therefore, this keeps us (locked) in the closet. Stigma is the albatross around your neck, choking the hell outta ya.
As a survivor, advocate, and journalist, I’ve made the fight against intimate partner violence and abuse my clarion call. I’ve researched and written extensively about this demeaning and potentially life-threatening behavior for various print and online media outlets, including Huffington Post Queer Voices, WyattEvans.com, and Baltimore Gay Life.
And as an author, I’ve made intimate partner violence and abuse the overarching theme of my “Nothing Can Tear Us Apart” series of novels; Frenzy! is the new installment. Because it tends to be a taboo subject in our community, I felt that this demoralizing behavior would be more palatable in novel form — and not such a bitter pill to swallow.
Now, allow me to give you slices of my national intimate partner violence and abuse seminars and workshops. First: How do I know if my relationship/partnership is abusive? It definitely is if you’re walking on eggshells around your partner. Other biggies:
- You agreeing to everything your partner says and does.
- You checking in often with your partner to report where you are and what you’re doing.
- Him/her keeping constant tabs on you.
- Him/her attempting to control what you wear, eat, and say, and who you spend time with.
- Him/her isolating you from family, friends, and your LGBTQ community.
- Him/her calling you offensive or derogatory names; using racial epithets and homophobic language.
- Him/her threatening to reveal your status if you’re HIV-positive or AIDS-diagnosed.
- Him/her threatening you with physical violence and abandonment, and threatening harm to those you love.
- Him/her physically harming you, and you excusing the injuries to others as “accidents.”
The abuser and the wielding of power: Abusers employ a variety of methods and schemes to manipulate you and wield their power: dominance, humiliation, isolation, intimidation, and threats.
Making your great escape: I’ve used that phrase for my seminar/workshop attendees. To extricate yourself from your abuser, you must first believe that your struggle to escape is heroic, reawaken your dreams, and know that you deserve help. Next, you must deal with all fears and risks. Then, it is critical that you tell trusted family members and friends about your situation — no more living in the shadows.
If you don’t feel that your life is in immediate danger, you must carefully and strategically plan your exit — know your legal rights, use the internet to find officials/institutions that can assist, and get the police and courts involved. Finally, I strongly encourage victims to seek counseling/therapy as part of their great escape.
We cannot allow stigma — or anything else — to prevent us from ratting out our abusers. Having ongoing open and honest conversations about intimate partner violence and abuse is essential and can save lives. Remember, the most potent weapon in the abuser’s arsenal is silence.
Isn’t it time for each and every one of us to fully come out of the closet?
If you or someone you know is experiencing intimate partner violence and abuse, visit my online home, WyattEvans.com. I have a special section complete with resources and more. And call: the National Domestic Violence Hotline, (800) 799-7233), or the Gay Men’s Domestic Violence Project Hotline, (800) 832-1901.
NOTE: The above is reprinted with the written permission of Mr. O’Brian Evans. This article originally appeared in the ADVOCATE in December of 2016.
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